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therealtrash) wrote2025-11-23 07:26 pm
therealtrash) wrote2025-11-23 07:26 pm
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Weird dream adventures
Hello, I've had some pretty vivid dreams over the past few days; they were very weird, but at the same time very nostalgic. I wanted to share some experiences I've had as a vessel during these last few nights.
Ok, before we get into the weirdness, I need to clarify a few things (god, this gonna be hard to explain...). I'm working on a webcomic with five main characters: Erick, Lenyx, Isabelle, Troy, and Fred. Erick is the protagonist, the story walks around his point of view. right? Right. Now, there are the characters from my webcomic and the versions from my dreams. Sometimes, when I dream, it's not me, but Erick. But not the Erick from my webcomic. It's hard to explain; it's similar to him, but he acts differently. And when I dream as him in my dreams, I feel like an watcher. I'll use a dumb example to try to explain: there's a chapter of Demon Slayer where Tanjiro is dreaming about one of his ancestors, in his memories of the past. He can feel his own emotions and has his own thoughts while his ancestor talks to someone else, but he can't say what he wants to say; it's the ancestor who speaks for himself. Well, that's what I feel when I'm in Erick's body in my dreams. And I've said this in another entrie, it might sound stupid, but I genuinely feel this way: sometimes I have dreams where the people I interact with act like real people. Like, I feel there's something different when I talk to a (let's say), a "dream npc," and when I talk to someone and I feel disturbed by how human that interaction is. I really feel like my brain can't reproduce such a human interaction like that. And that's what happens when I take over Erick's body and mind in my dreams. I can't do anything for myself, it's all him, but not the Erick I work with on my webcomic. This version of Erick is much more impulsive, makes decisions that I or the Erick from my webcomic wouldn't make. And I also feel like he's much more depressed. And as I've said before, I'm not the type of guy who strongly believes in spiritual things or anything like that, but the more dreams like this I have, the more confused I get. Because I can tell when I'm having a silly, meaningless dream and when I'm having a weird nostalgic and disturbing dream that feels really, REALLY, ODDLY real. Even if surrealism is predominant and I can't understand much of what's happening, I feel something different when the dream is special. When there seems to be a meaning there, a remnant of something that was once comprehensible. And I was remembering how weird the creation of that webcomic I'm working on was, and the idea just popped into my head. No, I didn't have an initial idea for the plot, no concept of what I was doing, nothing. The idea of a drawing just came to me. At that time I didn't even know how to draw properly, but I felt excited, opened IbisPaint and started drawing, without thinking about anything. And the first concept for the characters in my webcomic was two boys with intertwined hearts. One had shoulder-length black hair and the other had white hair (which I later changed to bluish-gray). That was it. I stopped for a moment and looked at my drawing, surprised that I had managed to draw that out of nowhere. I had been experiencing a creative block for several weeks and I simply started drawing non-stop, something I had no idea what the result would be. And the other characters just popped out of nowhere, little by little. Like their names, they came without me thinking much about them. I made some changes to their designs and personalities while creating a story for them, but they didn't have any story before, they were just concepts that I felt had potential and I decided to create a story for them.
Something funny and a bit curious: I've always been curious about the world of dreams, so the initial concepts for the story revolved around them. Even in the current plot, the theme of dreams is still present, but in the early concepts it was almost entirely about dreams. Also, my initial concepts for Erick were much more depressed than now. Almost the way he appears in my dreams, but I don't like see him as that, it disturbs me a bit.
But about my dreams where I'm like the Erick's vessel, they've been quite recurrent in the last few weeks. One of them was about a shopping (I even made a drawing inspired by it), a huge, HUGE shopping. But it had such a suffocating atmosphere; it's not the first time I've dreamed about places with that kind of atmosphere. The other was about many things at the same I prefer not to specify because it would be more confusing than this text already is, but it was mainly about family issues, the feeling of being in a place where you don't feel welcome and end up in an even worse place. And yes, even from my initial concepts for Erick as a character, he always felt unwelcome everywhere. So that's something that the character Erick, the Erick of my dreams, and I relate. Also in that dream, I (not actually me, you know, the Erick of my dreams) wasn't very nice to his friend. He lied to him, and that made me guilty, and I felt that expressed in Erick's emotions as well. Well, I should talk about the dream where he was in the lesser underworld by mistake, but that one was a bit more disturbing than usual. Wait for me try to use this as a inspiration for an arc in my webcomic in a lighter and a way that make more sense way. "But Max, what the heck are you talking about? What is the lesser underworld?" You don't know? Well, neither do I. But I went there and I didn't like it.
Well, that's it. Please don't say I'm crazy. And how would you feel if you discovered that your oc is acting differently than you planned in your dreams, or if you discovered that your oc was actually unconsciously inspired by a past life of yours or something like that? I prefer not to think that this has any connection with past lives, but I also prefer not to think that I'm crazy. I'm so confused, I have some things to resolve with some people I hurt in my dreams. But I don't think I'll be able to do it, and I feel stupid for caring about it. This is the weirdest text I've ever written in my entire life, but it's full of genuine confusing feelings. Have a good night everyone.
Ok, before we get into the weirdness, I need to clarify a few things (god, this gonna be hard to explain...). I'm working on a webcomic with five main characters: Erick, Lenyx, Isabelle, Troy, and Fred. Erick is the protagonist, the story walks around his point of view. right? Right. Now, there are the characters from my webcomic and the versions from my dreams. Sometimes, when I dream, it's not me, but Erick. But not the Erick from my webcomic. It's hard to explain; it's similar to him, but he acts differently. And when I dream as him in my dreams, I feel like an watcher. I'll use a dumb example to try to explain: there's a chapter of Demon Slayer where Tanjiro is dreaming about one of his ancestors, in his memories of the past. He can feel his own emotions and has his own thoughts while his ancestor talks to someone else, but he can't say what he wants to say; it's the ancestor who speaks for himself. Well, that's what I feel when I'm in Erick's body in my dreams. And I've said this in another entrie, it might sound stupid, but I genuinely feel this way: sometimes I have dreams where the people I interact with act like real people. Like, I feel there's something different when I talk to a (let's say), a "dream npc," and when I talk to someone and I feel disturbed by how human that interaction is. I really feel like my brain can't reproduce such a human interaction like that. And that's what happens when I take over Erick's body and mind in my dreams. I can't do anything for myself, it's all him, but not the Erick I work with on my webcomic. This version of Erick is much more impulsive, makes decisions that I or the Erick from my webcomic wouldn't make. And I also feel like he's much more depressed. And as I've said before, I'm not the type of guy who strongly believes in spiritual things or anything like that, but the more dreams like this I have, the more confused I get. Because I can tell when I'm having a silly, meaningless dream and when I'm having a weird nostalgic and disturbing dream that feels really, REALLY, ODDLY real. Even if surrealism is predominant and I can't understand much of what's happening, I feel something different when the dream is special. When there seems to be a meaning there, a remnant of something that was once comprehensible. And I was remembering how weird the creation of that webcomic I'm working on was, and the idea just popped into my head. No, I didn't have an initial idea for the plot, no concept of what I was doing, nothing. The idea of a drawing just came to me. At that time I didn't even know how to draw properly, but I felt excited, opened IbisPaint and started drawing, without thinking about anything. And the first concept for the characters in my webcomic was two boys with intertwined hearts. One had shoulder-length black hair and the other had white hair (which I later changed to bluish-gray). That was it. I stopped for a moment and looked at my drawing, surprised that I had managed to draw that out of nowhere. I had been experiencing a creative block for several weeks and I simply started drawing non-stop, something I had no idea what the result would be. And the other characters just popped out of nowhere, little by little. Like their names, they came without me thinking much about them. I made some changes to their designs and personalities while creating a story for them, but they didn't have any story before, they were just concepts that I felt had potential and I decided to create a story for them.
Something funny and a bit curious: I've always been curious about the world of dreams, so the initial concepts for the story revolved around them. Even in the current plot, the theme of dreams is still present, but in the early concepts it was almost entirely about dreams. Also, my initial concepts for Erick were much more depressed than now. Almost the way he appears in my dreams, but I don't like see him as that, it disturbs me a bit.
But about my dreams where I'm like the Erick's vessel, they've been quite recurrent in the last few weeks. One of them was about a shopping (I even made a drawing inspired by it), a huge, HUGE shopping. But it had such a suffocating atmosphere; it's not the first time I've dreamed about places with that kind of atmosphere. The other was about many things at the same I prefer not to specify because it would be more confusing than this text already is, but it was mainly about family issues, the feeling of being in a place where you don't feel welcome and end up in an even worse place. And yes, even from my initial concepts for Erick as a character, he always felt unwelcome everywhere. So that's something that the character Erick, the Erick of my dreams, and I relate. Also in that dream, I (not actually me, you know, the Erick of my dreams) wasn't very nice to his friend. He lied to him, and that made me guilty, and I felt that expressed in Erick's emotions as well. Well, I should talk about the dream where he was in the lesser underworld by mistake, but that one was a bit more disturbing than usual. Wait for me try to use this as a inspiration for an arc in my webcomic in a lighter and a way that make more sense way. "But Max, what the heck are you talking about? What is the lesser underworld?" You don't know? Well, neither do I. But I went there and I didn't like it.
Well, that's it. Please don't say I'm crazy. And how would you feel if you discovered that your oc is acting differently than you planned in your dreams, or if you discovered that your oc was actually unconsciously inspired by a past life of yours or something like that? I prefer not to think that this has any connection with past lives, but I also prefer not to think that I'm crazy. I'm so confused, I have some things to resolve with some people I hurt in my dreams. But I don't think I'll be able to do it, and I feel stupid for caring about it. This is the weirdest text I've ever written in my entire life, but it's full of genuine confusing feelings. Have a good night everyone.
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