therealtrash | (no subject)

Hi, Christmas is almost here, huh? I'm not quite sure how to feel about it. I'm writing many stories right now, I'm having a lot of fun and feeling very inspired, but it's kinda difficult to work on them all at the same time. Anyway, I'm doing my best. I just don't know if I should publish them or keep them to myself, since nobody cares, and I'm afraid that people will misinterpret the messages I want to convey and I'll get canceled, and then I'll kill myself because I can't handle the pressure. But, again, I think nobody will read them anyway. I said I was working on a webcomic, and yes, I was! But It's currently in a hiatus because I still don't know what the future holds for this story. I don't know if I'll ever finish it, I work very slowly and I was thinking of releasing it first as a written story, since I don't know when I'll finish the webcomic. Another thing that crossed my mind during these days was the possibility that I might have some kind of personality or mood disorder, because sometimes my mood changes in a matter of minutes, and it's fucking with my life and my self-image. I'm upset right now about something really small, something I saw on the internet, and my night is ruined. Sometimes I want to throw my phone against the wall, but I know I'd regret it. I'm also thinking about doing body horror art. I'm not a big fan of body horror, but I think it could be cool for now, to express some emotions that aren't so beautiful, of course, through my characters, traumatizing them too. That's it. I'm dying of the infernal heat is doing in my city.