The fabulous and disastrous mind of Erick León's vessel aka Max Natan

Hello o_0, let's talk about whatever comes to mind again. I want to start with smth stupid, which is just a confession and maybe a tip for dealing with stress caused by prejudiced people. One of my favorite hobbies when homophobic people piss me off irl is to take those stereotypical homophobic old women who probably talk badly about me behind my back and draw them kissing. It makes me feel very powerful, like, I can't stop you from saying bullshit, but I can make yuri of you two, haha! "Oh, but I'm a man—" I can make yaoi of you with whoever I want, so it's best not to say shit anymore! This is a great tip for feeling better about yourself, trust me.

Geez, what a way to start a conversation... imagine you just met me in person and you say "hi, I'm (insert random name), nice to meet you, blah blah blah." and I just say "hi, my name is Max. I like to draw homophobic old women kissing." Be honest, you'd politely run away from me, lol?

But anyways, if you're wondering why this title (you're not), it's just an answer to myself, when I thought with me today: "I desperately want to be part of something." And don't we all? Imagine someone just come to me now and say: "Yo dude, I know we don't know each other, but I chose you to be part of my ultra secret club, only for cool people, that kill demons. Wanna join? It's very dangerous and you have a high chance of dying, but it's a secret cool thing and blah, blah, blah." Bro? Sure! I just wanna feel like I belong somewhere, and if I die, even better. THIS IS A JOKE, OK? I know, life matters and etc, but c'mon, my nickname is fckn "the real trash" and you don't even expect any stupid, self-deprecating jokes from me? Hah, poser! Sorry, guys, I just totally lost my focus, heh. That's how I am, that's my humor, you need to get used to it. But yeah, I think we all want to feel part of something big and that makes us feel important. Actually, I was thinking that this would be a great theme for the third chapter of a story about people time forgot. And yeah, I still don't remember exactly if that's the name, I'm not gonna look for the previous chapters just to see the name (yeah, haha! This guy doesn't remember the name of his own story, lol, funny).

And what else went through my head this week? Well, I know nobody cares when I talk about medias I consumed here, but I want to talk about it, will you allow me? Well, thank you. I spent my whole Sunday watching Gachiakuta. I'm not even kidding, I just woke up, had breakfast, and started rewatching the first few episodes because I didn't remember them very well, and then decided to finish it all that day. I only stopped to shower, and yes, I ate while watching Gachiakuta too. After that, I spent the next few days making stupid inside jokes about this anime, since I spent the whole Sunday watching it, obviously it got stuck in my head. Like, I kept remembering Jabber's jokes and laughing at them to myself. And most of them weren't even jokes, it's just that Jabber is a funny character. He's an amazing villain, in my opinion. Many people want all the villains in their stories to be cruel, repulsive, and embody evil, and yes, there should be unlikeable villains, but we need more funny and captivating villains. A charismatic character is what wins the hearts of fans. You can create a hateful and lovable character at the same time, and that's exactly how I feel about Jabber. Because, yep, in some way... I ended up having as my favorite Gachiakuta characters the guy who always ends fucked up and the guy who fucks him up. No... not in that way! I mean... that's a spoiler, but he (Jabber) tries to kill him (Zanka) more than once. lol. *cough* *cough* i love my toxic yaoi. *cough* *cough* Joking aside, I'm going to make the most stupid and specific rant about my favorite anime characters. So... there's a moment in Gachiakuta where all the members of the protagonist group have a 1v1 duel with the main villains (so far in the anime, I haven't read the manga, so I don't know if there are a new main villain currently), and that's not bad, I was missing some of these shonen tropes, ngl. A 1v1 brings me back a lot of the classic Chūnin Exam from Naruto, or the Hunter Exam from Hunter x Hunter, etc. Well... I'm not going to focus so much on whether it was done well, because I have a lot to say about how I think the writers tried to do too many things at once and ended up creating a confusing mess, but I just really wanted to talk about Zanka vs Jabber. Well, if you watched Gachiakuta, you know that those two had such a badass fight at the beginning, right? (Well, it wasn't really a Zanka vs Jabber fight, it was more like Rudo vs Jabber with Zanka as support) but anyway... I really liked the dynamic the anime introduced between these two in Jabber's first appearance. So, I was excited to see more of the two of them; they work really well as rivals. Seriously, I felt something I hadn't felt in years with a shonen anime, like Naruto and Sasuke or Sasuke and Itachi, you know, these iconic rivals. That's why I really got into both Zanka and Jabber; Zanka became my favorite among the protagonists and Jabber my favorite among the villains. Well... actually, I already liked Zanka a lot and already considered him my favorite of the main group... Guys, I think I have a strange and very specific soft spot for male characters whose names start with "Z" and who have a somewhat unstable sense of humor... Well, that doesn't matter now! I was crossing fingers for the next encounter between Zanka and Jabber happen in the first season of the anime, and I also really wanted to know about Zanka's backstory cause he's the best character, that's it! He carries the entire group of protagonists on his shoulders. So, when I saw that there would be a classic 1v1 between the good guys and the bad guys, I got very excited and had high expectations to see a new Zanka vs Jabber fight, and also to get to know the new villains that were introduced better. (Spoiler: none of them won me over like Jabber). And if you haven't watched or read Gachiakuta yet, or don't want to (for some reason, I really think you should), I'll summarize this fight: it was very well balanced, Jabber Beat Zanka's ass, Zanka got his ass beaten. No, seriously, I think I was very stupid to think that Zanka had any chance against Jabber, because he had already been fucked in the fight where Rudo was supporting him. I don't know why I thought things would be different with them ALONE! I know, Jabber is very strong, I didn't expect Zanka to beat his ass and just go, but my dear Gachiakuta writers, did you really need to show my boy Zanka's past while he was dying and make that whole scene showing that he was about to get stronger, just to show that he was fckn hallucinating from the poison???!!! Like, I knew Zanka was dying because of Jabber's poison. It's already been said and shown that he's much stronger than Zanka. You just wanted to mock him and us, the watchers, making us believe he'd get stronger just because he remembered his past, like Tanjiro from Demon Slayer! And bro, about Zanka's past that I so wanted to see so bad, I saw it... but at what cost? Wdym Zanka was from an honorable family and a middle-class kid? THEY LIVE IN A CITY MADE OF LITERAL TRASH! HOW DOES SOCIAL HIERARCHY STILL EXIST IN THIS WORLD???!!! I really like Gachiakuta. It's an amazing anime that shows how capitalist and consumerist society really works. It portrays a dystopian world, made of all the garbage that the rich throw at people who may not even know they live below them, and I was so fascinated by this concept that I thought the past of all the characters that live in the surface would be really deep and show how the poorest classes suffer. Like, people almost starving to death, fighting various diseases and things like that. Ok, it was already shown at the beginning that things aren't exactly like that. Like, the blond guy, whose name I don't know how to spell correctly, took Rudo out for a hamburger. Yes, there's still money in this world and yes, they make things like fast food and candies. Ok, I got that things wouldn't be so different from our current world in social aspects. But I really didn't expect that, when they showed Zanka's backstory, I would see him in those spoiled brat uniforms and in a generic school for spoiled brats (with all due respect). In the end, his past was completely different from what I imagined; it was more like Rock Lee's past. I'm not even kidding, I think Rock Lee may have suffered more than him (and remember that Rock Lee didn't grow up in a city made of trash!). I think it was mostly my expectations's fault. The expectations I had for Gachiakuta were mostly done, but many of them weren't, and that was one of the things that really disappointed me. Ok, I've yaped too much about Gachiakuta already, damn it! But the last thing I wanted to say is that I was so fckn mad when that woman with the electric hair returned in the final episodes of the first season and Zanka was the only one who was too fucked up to fight. Seriously, I don't know how old Zanka is, I don't know if there's a Gachiakuta wiki, but remember he's an adult and had to be carried by a CHILD! Who I think is even stronger than him! And when those reinforcements arrived (late af btw) and one guy asked, "Is anyone seriously injured?" and the blond guy answered "Zanka." And only Zanka, I was furious! Why is the character I simp for always the one that got fucked up??!! As if that wasn't enough, when I was in my Naruto phase, the only one of Naruto's main friends who died in the war was precisely the character I was most attached to! Dude, did you know Tenten survived? FCKN TENTEN, BRO! SHE BARELY APPEARS IN THE SHOW, BUT NOOO, WE HAVE TO KILL NEJI, ONLY NEJI!! I couldn't even cry properly when it got to the part where he dies because I'd already seen spoilers before, and seriously, I went in depressive state for weeks. Several times I found myself crying out of nowhere because I remembered that one day I would have to see him die. Man, you can't imagine how attached I was to Neji. He was and always will be my absolute comfort character. Every step he took in his redemption made me so happy, I cried tears of joy when I saw him healing from his generational trauma. I expected so much from him in Shippuden and they made my boy Neji so dirty! I swear, Gachiakuta writers, if you had balls to kill Zanka one day... it better not happen.

Haha, wow! How did this silly little conversation turn into a rant about how I have such strange relationships with some works and the characters I get too attached to...? Please tell me I'm not the only one who went into grief for about two years because a character I like died unfairly, stupidly, and unnecessarily. I'm not alone in this, am I, guys... haha? Well... did you noticed this pfp? It's Rochelle Goyle from Monster High, she's really pretty. I like her. Maybe I upload a Zanka one too, but honestly, I'm too lazy for search to Gachiakuta icons. So... I'll just wait to see if some of those just pop out in my Pinterest fyp.