Fck everyone

[therealtrash]

I can't find a moment's peace. My head hurts, all I want is to sleep forever. My brother takes his anger out on others and always tries to make everything revolve around him. I can barely leave my room to eat cause he starts complaining about his problems. Like, I know it's hard not having someone to vent to, but I've given him helpful advice and he just ignores it, so what else can I do? He doesn't want to solve his problems, he just wants to complain in our ears. And I can't even ask him to give me some peace because he goes insane over absolutely everything, so I think the best thing I can do for now is just to avoid him, even if it means staying locked in my room all day. I've also been having problems with my mother; although I love her, she's doing some things that are pissing me off. She brings my father home, and my father is complicated. I won't go into details, but there was a reason to be kicked out of our house by her family. I don't want to look at his face anymore, and having him at home is very uncomfortable. It's like he's never done anything wrong, everyone plays dumb. I can't go downstairs because he's in the living room and stays there for hours. Basically, my family is a mess rn. My brother curses at my mother, punches things to takes his problems at school, my mother pretends everything is fine and that there's nothing wrong with my father at home. In the midst of all this chaos, do I have time to talk about my problems? Even if I did, I wouldn't, because I don't trust anyone. I don't know what to do besides seek refuge in other things. My mind is already a mess, and now the outside world has become a mess too. It feels like I'm in hell. I just want a friend or a glass of water with three drops of Rivotril.

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[astroll]

At least your brother doesn't take it out on you 😢
(I hope not)

[therealtrash]

Sometimes. (Not physically)